skool tomolo...damn my parents la...
okay la not sayin dat deir realli bad parents or anythin...its jus like..
dey left us here to starve..literally..haha deres is NUTHIN in da house to eat.. yea and like da rent is due.. i think well get da money jus in time fore dey kick us out da bloody place..damn la.
yea well da muny shud come in on tues but i dunno la dunt even noe how much deyll give us... supposed ly 1400 round dere... do da maths lokay da rent is 1200... uhuh and gettin me to skool for a month is 120... dat leaves us with like 80 bucks for groceries...and were like runnin out of everythin and mutiara has bin usin her secret stash of muny to pay for everythin... so if mummy pays her baq with da muny sent oevwr dat will leave us with yes u guessed it...ZERO
smart rite. and its freezin here even as im typin my right hand is goin numb cos da fuqin window is open... and like all da cold air is streamin in... and best of all our parents didnt wanna believe us...dey called us wusses for bloodys sake...
uhuh and now dat mummys boss is here... dey believe us..cos my moms boss said it was freezin here... and shes frm canada i mean dere it goes to like minus 25 degrees and she said it was eralli cold here so finally dey believe us...
and its not fair its all da fuckin fault of da fuckin ppl who wanted to buy our fucki9n house cos dey made an agrerement with our mom... dey were like okay we wont look round for other houses and u dunt let other ppl look at buyin your house and den well buy your house......
yea well dey havent fuckin SOLD deir house so dey cant buy our house... so dey can onli give us muny wen dey sell deir house... yea great so rite now we dunt haf like extra muny to splash out cos dose bitches wont let us try to sell our house to other ppl and dey havent even sold deir house...i mean wat kinda fucked tok is dat? huh? huh?
okay u noe wat watever..haha ill jus like freeze to death here in da meantime..okay okay i guess im exxageratin... dunt suppose its dat bad... but realli deres like nuthin to eat nomore... like
old mother hubbards cupboard.. u noe da one dat was totlli empty...
so dat even da fuckin dog cudent get a fuckin bone..
yup well its like dat...
dammit la... and i so dunt feel like goin to skool tomolo realli ar...ngah bingit..haha and i dunno la im jus sick of sittin in class wen im not learnin anythin at all...it jus seems like so stupid to me.
i mean it takes da point outta comin to skool...like realli but da shitty thing is like i hafta get thru it...damn la i jus hope dat time realli flies...dats why i wanna get a job... u noe like jus let da time pass me by with out me even realisin it..
u noe like a numb bliss sorta state
u noe wat fuckit
why do i even blog i dunno
argh...
im jus so confused and like hopeful but im so afraid to hope cos alwys wen i hope for sumthin it jus never works out..
i mean realli it always happens im wayy to scared to hpe anymore cos it always doesnt do no good...
i think its jus me u noe mbm i am realli cursed..its like nuthin seems to go my way...
deres never a time wen i dyunt feel u noe like dat i am realli truly happy u noe deres always sumthin wrong... but who am i to complain i guess it happensd to everyone... but its so interestin cos i mean if i had jus dat lil bit more it wudent be like dis...
or mb im jus thinkin dat...
gah.
dunt no no more...
haha u noe wat i jus tot of sumthin... all da things dat happened dat made me wary and not so naive and shit all happened in like rss... i duno its jus a tot.. den like why am i sio fuckin attached to all da years passed
why cant i jus fuckin let go..
i dunno.
but realli i can name millions of things dat happened
but i dunt care no more. even if i do how shud u noe. u dunt noe me u never did.. till i let u and den u found out and it was all different...
i dunt noe u
i never cared...
den why do u matter so much to me...
why cant i jus fall and not be so afraid of hittin da bottom...
why am i so screwed up?
huh?
huh?
u noe ppl say its sick wen u cut urself... haha i guess deir rite.. but den again its a sorta release... and not onli dat i dunno it makes u feel.. nuthin
i noe dis sounds cliche but it like lets one pain substitute another... and all yuor emotions dey are all jus blocked out.. u dunt feel them.. all yuor anegr its doesnt hurt u no more
cos deres another more immediate pain.
does dat make sense?
guess not
owel iu wont noe till u try it... but of course deres no use if ur afraid.. haha okay i guess u can say dat im realli sadistic... and mb i am.. haha wat i always say...
i dunt feel pain
y?
cos i dunno i mena i feel it and all its jus it doesnt realli affect me.. i can move on after dat... i gues its all jus a mental thingy. yea were sorta studyin it in psychology. its relli interestin haha and i hafta say i do agree.
so says mutiara.. she thinks im nuts to even haf so many piercings.. haha bt it realli doesnt hurt..
okay dose dat are totalli and completely lost raise ur hand.
haha tot so.
okay well im not like depressed or anythin... im not suicidal i guess... im jus like in a realli sadistic mood.. haha and y6ea i jus am like realli blind to da point of my bein here...
well i think ill blog tomolo in acc class.
outs
okay la not sayin dat deir realli bad parents or anythin...its jus like..
dey left us here to starve..literally..haha deres is NUTHIN in da house to eat.. yea and like da rent is due.. i think well get da money jus in time fore dey kick us out da bloody place..damn la.
yea well da muny shud come in on tues but i dunno la dunt even noe how much deyll give us... supposed ly 1400 round dere... do da maths lokay da rent is 1200... uhuh and gettin me to skool for a month is 120... dat leaves us with like 80 bucks for groceries...and were like runnin out of everythin and mutiara has bin usin her secret stash of muny to pay for everythin... so if mummy pays her baq with da muny sent oevwr dat will leave us with yes u guessed it...ZERO
smart rite. and its freezin here even as im typin my right hand is goin numb cos da fuqin window is open... and like all da cold air is streamin in... and best of all our parents didnt wanna believe us...dey called us wusses for bloodys sake...
uhuh and now dat mummys boss is here... dey believe us..cos my moms boss said it was freezin here... and shes frm canada i mean dere it goes to like minus 25 degrees and she said it was eralli cold here so finally dey believe us...
and its not fair its all da fuckin fault of da fuckin ppl who wanted to buy our fucki9n house cos dey made an agrerement with our mom... dey were like okay we wont look round for other houses and u dunt let other ppl look at buyin your house and den well buy your house......
yea well dey havent fuckin SOLD deir house so dey cant buy our house... so dey can onli give us muny wen dey sell deir house... yea great so rite now we dunt haf like extra muny to splash out cos dose bitches wont let us try to sell our house to other ppl and dey havent even sold deir house...i mean wat kinda fucked tok is dat? huh? huh?
okay u noe wat watever..haha ill jus like freeze to death here in da meantime..okay okay i guess im exxageratin... dunt suppose its dat bad... but realli deres like nuthin to eat nomore... like
old mother hubbards cupboard.. u noe da one dat was totlli empty...
so dat even da fuckin dog cudent get a fuckin bone..
yup well its like dat...
dammit la... and i so dunt feel like goin to skool tomolo realli ar...ngah bingit..haha and i dunno la im jus sick of sittin in class wen im not learnin anythin at all...it jus seems like so stupid to me.
i mean it takes da point outta comin to skool...like realli but da shitty thing is like i hafta get thru it...damn la i jus hope dat time realli flies...dats why i wanna get a job... u noe like jus let da time pass me by with out me even realisin it..
u noe like a numb bliss sorta state
u noe wat fuckit
why do i even blog i dunno
argh...
im jus so confused and like hopeful but im so afraid to hope cos alwys wen i hope for sumthin it jus never works out..
i mean realli it always happens im wayy to scared to hpe anymore cos it always doesnt do no good...
i think its jus me u noe mbm i am realli cursed..its like nuthin seems to go my way...
deres never a time wen i dyunt feel u noe like dat i am realli truly happy u noe deres always sumthin wrong... but who am i to complain i guess it happensd to everyone... but its so interestin cos i mean if i had jus dat lil bit more it wudent be like dis...
or mb im jus thinkin dat...
gah.
dunt no no more...
haha u noe wat i jus tot of sumthin... all da things dat happened dat made me wary and not so naive and shit all happened in like rss... i duno its jus a tot.. den like why am i sio fuckin attached to all da years passed
why cant i jus fuckin let go..
i dunno.
but realli i can name millions of things dat happened
but i dunt care no more. even if i do how shud u noe. u dunt noe me u never did.. till i let u and den u found out and it was all different...
i dunt noe u
i never cared...
den why do u matter so much to me...
why cant i jus fall and not be so afraid of hittin da bottom...
why am i so screwed up?
huh?
huh?
u noe ppl say its sick wen u cut urself... haha i guess deir rite.. but den again its a sorta release... and not onli dat i dunno it makes u feel.. nuthin
i noe dis sounds cliche but it like lets one pain substitute another... and all yuor emotions dey are all jus blocked out.. u dunt feel them.. all yuor anegr its doesnt hurt u no more
cos deres another more immediate pain.
does dat make sense?
guess not
owel iu wont noe till u try it... but of course deres no use if ur afraid.. haha okay i guess u can say dat im realli sadistic... and mb i am.. haha wat i always say...
i dunt feel pain
y?
cos i dunno i mena i feel it and all its jus it doesnt realli affect me.. i can move on after dat... i gues its all jus a mental thingy. yea were sorta studyin it in psychology. its relli interestin haha and i hafta say i do agree.
so says mutiara.. she thinks im nuts to even haf so many piercings.. haha bt it realli doesnt hurt..
okay dose dat are totalli and completely lost raise ur hand.
haha tot so.
okay well im not like depressed or anythin... im not suicidal i guess... im jus like in a realli sadistic mood.. haha and y6ea i jus am like realli blind to da point of my bein here...
well i think ill blog tomolo in acc class.
outs
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