whyd o i always hafta torture myself...
god i cant believe i do it but then again time after time i see myself repeatin the act
almost dejavu-like
i do wonder
"del..u noe dat dats da way it is... u noe it wont change so why do you stare. its almost like ur dissin urself. wait u are dissin urself... tsk tsk"
"but i stare because i hafta. to put things in perspective. to show me to remind me. i mean.. siaper la aku?(who am i?)"
pain? hah i dunt noe da meanin of da word.. nope im not in a suicidal i hate da world mode.. im not depressed either well not realli... i guess.
im jus fuckin tired. and yea everythin is sorta hazy
so xcuse da spellin mistakes and typos.
baq to wat i was sayin.
why?
i dunno.. and itd be okay if i didnt ALWAYS do it.. its like i cant help it but i guess i cud argue dat da only reason i stare is for the image of one but dats bull i mean if deres more to it deres more to it.. and i do notice it so its no use pretendin..
confusion reigns
but den again some interestin prospects are comin dis way.. id betta not elaborate. today was fun.. part frm skool.
duh.
exams start next week why do i sound like it is the least important thing on my agenda at da moment.
haha
I WANT A BOYFRIEND.
sorry tim darlin(fiance)
i mean 10 yrs is a long time
maye i shud do one of those telepathic message thingies.
haha sad.
yea and im glad i had coffee with tiara.. and we toked it definitely made me feel better.. well or da moment at least. cos yea was wonderin recently wat itd be like if i said sumthin and whether itd be okay or anythin..
guess its a weight off.
i have da letter 'k' and 'i' on my arm.. it was supposed to be more but i never got to finish da word. i want a tattoo...random i noe but i am random
lastly.. haha my ___ got some attention today
haha well he started it and i jus continued.. he is cute..wen he smiles esp. haha but den deres da classic.
gah fuck it watever
hallucinatin
ooh julian apparently loves da whole "loser, double loser" thingie.. cos its amusing. i dunt get it.nvm. dere are alot of things i dunt get..
and to hell u muthafouker.. if u fall u fall u WILL die and u cant get outta it or change it. live with it. heh. ironic.
screw u dunt blame others for ur mistakes and screw-ups
no brainer:
and i can still wonder why im so unlucky. im like surrounded by bad karma as says tiara.. personally it think its cos like wat tim and fazlie were sayin.. guys dunt normally like to clean up da mess.
(yes i still remember da sayin)
good eh?
kyarh.
fuck im out
god i cant believe i do it but then again time after time i see myself repeatin the act
almost dejavu-like
i do wonder
"del..u noe dat dats da way it is... u noe it wont change so why do you stare. its almost like ur dissin urself. wait u are dissin urself... tsk tsk"
"but i stare because i hafta. to put things in perspective. to show me to remind me. i mean.. siaper la aku?(who am i?)"
pain? hah i dunt noe da meanin of da word.. nope im not in a suicidal i hate da world mode.. im not depressed either well not realli... i guess.
im jus fuckin tired. and yea everythin is sorta hazy
so xcuse da spellin mistakes and typos.
baq to wat i was sayin.
why?
i dunno.. and itd be okay if i didnt ALWAYS do it.. its like i cant help it but i guess i cud argue dat da only reason i stare is for the image of one but dats bull i mean if deres more to it deres more to it.. and i do notice it so its no use pretendin..
confusion reigns
but den again some interestin prospects are comin dis way.. id betta not elaborate. today was fun.. part frm skool.
duh.
exams start next week why do i sound like it is the least important thing on my agenda at da moment.
haha
I WANT A BOYFRIEND.
sorry tim darlin(fiance)
i mean 10 yrs is a long time
maye i shud do one of those telepathic message thingies.
haha sad.
yea and im glad i had coffee with tiara.. and we toked it definitely made me feel better.. well or da moment at least. cos yea was wonderin recently wat itd be like if i said sumthin and whether itd be okay or anythin..
guess its a weight off.
i have da letter 'k' and 'i' on my arm.. it was supposed to be more but i never got to finish da word. i want a tattoo...random i noe but i am random
lastly.. haha my ___ got some attention today
haha well he started it and i jus continued.. he is cute..wen he smiles esp. haha but den deres da classic.
gah fuck it watever
hallucinatin
ooh julian apparently loves da whole "loser, double loser" thingie.. cos its amusing. i dunt get it.nvm. dere are alot of things i dunt get..
and to hell u muthafouker.. if u fall u fall u WILL die and u cant get outta it or change it. live with it. heh. ironic.
screw u dunt blame others for ur mistakes and screw-ups
no brainer:
and i can still wonder why im so unlucky. im like surrounded by bad karma as says tiara.. personally it think its cos like wat tim and fazlie were sayin.. guys dunt normally like to clean up da mess.
(yes i still remember da sayin)
good eh?
kyarh.
fuck im out
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