the world spin but u stand a solitary figure.. swayin in the breeze. it almost does the job for u but not quite cos it takes more den nature to leap. it takes a push. a shove.
u take a deep breath and the ground rushes towards u. u feel the wind whistle in your ears. u want to scream tell everything to jus stop and rewind. but its too late. the moment has passed and time has moved on and as much as u want it to wait.. wait for u as u run behind, panting to catch up, its always a step ahead and it wont stop and u cant catch it. and the world keeps spinnin.
people move on. hardly noticing the dark shape now lyin still on the ground. a heap of crushed hopes and broken dreams.
its wings bent, its back hunched, its arms hugging its knees, tryin to understand, tryin to accept, tryin to be like everyone else.
"dont diss my wings. i CAN fly. u cant pull me down; i dont hope, i dont dream. u cant kill me from the inside cos im already dead and when im up there i wont take any of you. i am above u all. elevated... most important, i am free.
*********
skools borin like realli realli borin. went snowboardin i think it was last last weekend it was cool cept i ended up with my arm in a cast. and i swear wearin one is friggin torture. it itches like so bad. so yea it got so bad i sorta went mental. completely fuckin nuts. and i started hackin at it witha knife . yup anyway i had a ball to go to and it jus wudent be proper to show up with like my arm in a friggin huge cast. so yea.. last weekend was da ball friday i think. it was wayy cool. danced with like everyone.. i was on da dancefloor da whole nite aye. it was real cool. and ronja and tess and holly were all fuckin pissed. holly got chucked out cos dere were jus too drunk. but yea got to dance with richard. yup he won king. and den dey played my song... shake dat thing by sean paul. so i ended up in da middle with a grp of ppl round me all shakin asses. and i wasnt even dat drunk. hardly not in fact.
monday mornin. i walk into class late and cassidy and co. are jus like grinnin at me cassidy clappin. maths teacher comes up to me.. "were u at da ball. i didnt see u"
happens to turn to cassidy "was she at da ball?" cassidy like sits up and hes like "oh u were dere aye. i saw u on da dancefloor. she was dere sir."
yea okay so i think maybe i let go a bit. damced with pretty much everyone.
tuesday. walkin out of maths class.. richard walks past da window and bllowes me kisses. wat da hell.. blow a few baq. on da way out cass goes"hows richard". waitemata walks past"hows richard"
i think okay dis is gettin annoyin. cute thou..
and i lost my fone. lost it after da ball.. it gets better. guess where?
in my room. yes i did have it wen i got home cos ppl were messagin me and i was replyin but i didnt haf any credit so i chucked it on da bed/table/counter. i cant realli remember where. but i noe i was at home.
no im stupid u fucktard. of course i tried callin it but da battery was flat and so da bloody thing was off.. and i was tidyin up my room frm da mess i made on friday leavin for da ball and den i cudent find my fone and i made a mess of da room again lookin for it. i looked everywhere.. name a place i looked dere. i even went thru da washin. under da bed. in da wardrobe. in my drawers. in da rubbish.ind a rolled up posters. in my bag. in my skool bag. even in my pillow cases.
came up with a big fat zilch.
i hope it will turn up. it jus has to. i mean it cant jus go missin ill fuckin freak if i dunt find it. ej even came over today to help me look*big hugs and smooches to ej* ive got my fingers crossed.
oh and i saw julian today. dat was way cool to finally see him after so long. i was jus like woah... missed him havent seen him since before da hols. i was supposed to go out with him on sunday but i lost my fone and i dunt noe his no off by heart so i was pretty screwed. yup da darlin bothered walkin all da way up to my doorstep jus to leave me a nice empty can. with a rubberband holdin a piece of paper around it.
da paper reads:
Julian was not here but he is still mad at you for being mean. now get off your ass and throw this can in the rubbish u lazy woman.
hows sweet rite?
yes i noe it sounds not realli sweet but it is.. julian style sweet. cute too. and definitely original. u jus gotta love him...
^^^4 more weeks of skool left^^^
i think i can take it.
wish me luck and enjoy da song my song of da moment.
Can You Help Me by Usher
u take a deep breath and the ground rushes towards u. u feel the wind whistle in your ears. u want to scream tell everything to jus stop and rewind. but its too late. the moment has passed and time has moved on and as much as u want it to wait.. wait for u as u run behind, panting to catch up, its always a step ahead and it wont stop and u cant catch it. and the world keeps spinnin.
people move on. hardly noticing the dark shape now lyin still on the ground. a heap of crushed hopes and broken dreams.
a fallen angel;
its wings bent, its back hunched, its arms hugging its knees, tryin to understand, tryin to accept, tryin to be like everyone else.
"dont diss my wings. i CAN fly. u cant pull me down; i dont hope, i dont dream. u cant kill me from the inside cos im already dead and when im up there i wont take any of you. i am above u all. elevated... most important, i am free.
*********
skools borin like realli realli borin. went snowboardin i think it was last last weekend it was cool cept i ended up with my arm in a cast. and i swear wearin one is friggin torture. it itches like so bad. so yea it got so bad i sorta went mental. completely fuckin nuts. and i started hackin at it witha knife . yup anyway i had a ball to go to and it jus wudent be proper to show up with like my arm in a friggin huge cast. so yea.. last weekend was da ball friday i think. it was wayy cool. danced with like everyone.. i was on da dancefloor da whole nite aye. it was real cool. and ronja and tess and holly were all fuckin pissed. holly got chucked out cos dere were jus too drunk. but yea got to dance with richard. yup he won king. and den dey played my song... shake dat thing by sean paul. so i ended up in da middle with a grp of ppl round me all shakin asses. and i wasnt even dat drunk. hardly not in fact.
monday mornin. i walk into class late and cassidy and co. are jus like grinnin at me cassidy clappin. maths teacher comes up to me.. "were u at da ball. i didnt see u"
happens to turn to cassidy "was she at da ball?" cassidy like sits up and hes like "oh u were dere aye. i saw u on da dancefloor. she was dere sir."
yea okay so i think maybe i let go a bit. damced with pretty much everyone.
tuesday. walkin out of maths class.. richard walks past da window and bllowes me kisses. wat da hell.. blow a few baq. on da way out cass goes"hows richard". waitemata walks past"hows richard"
i think okay dis is gettin annoyin. cute thou..
and i lost my fone. lost it after da ball.. it gets better. guess where?
in my room. yes i did have it wen i got home cos ppl were messagin me and i was replyin but i didnt haf any credit so i chucked it on da bed/table/counter. i cant realli remember where. but i noe i was at home.
no im stupid u fucktard. of course i tried callin it but da battery was flat and so da bloody thing was off.. and i was tidyin up my room frm da mess i made on friday leavin for da ball and den i cudent find my fone and i made a mess of da room again lookin for it. i looked everywhere.. name a place i looked dere. i even went thru da washin. under da bed. in da wardrobe. in my drawers. in da rubbish.ind a rolled up posters. in my bag. in my skool bag. even in my pillow cases.
came up with a big fat zilch.
i hope it will turn up. it jus has to. i mean it cant jus go missin ill fuckin freak if i dunt find it. ej even came over today to help me look*big hugs and smooches to ej* ive got my fingers crossed.
oh and i saw julian today. dat was way cool to finally see him after so long. i was jus like woah... missed him havent seen him since before da hols. i was supposed to go out with him on sunday but i lost my fone and i dunt noe his no off by heart so i was pretty screwed. yup da darlin bothered walkin all da way up to my doorstep jus to leave me a nice empty can. with a rubberband holdin a piece of paper around it.
da paper reads:
Julian was not here but he is still mad at you for being mean. now get off your ass and throw this can in the rubbish u lazy woman.
hows sweet rite?
yes i noe it sounds not realli sweet but it is.. julian style sweet. cute too. and definitely original. u jus gotta love him...
^^^4 more weeks of skool left^^^
i think i can take it.
wish me luck and enjoy da song my song of da moment.
Can You Help Me by Usher
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