11.07.2004 great..

lovely lovely stuff.
im tokin to michael. yes michael. guy i hooked up with wen i was pissed drunk.
and yes hes still in love with me.
yup da guy who made me get dumped? yup i think were on da same track.
well hes in sydney now.. and hes still crazy as ever. but he has a gun now..

even better.

and he does wana kill himself cos he thinks dat da possibilities of him being more den a fren to me is da same as him pullin da trigger and survivin da bullet to da fuckin head.

scary part?

well hes fully capable of carryin out everythin he said he wud. i still think dat deres more to him de dat. but deres no way im gonna push further..

well exams comin*whoop-dee-fuckin-doo*
and da past few days have bin real great. cos(thanks to my lovely boyfren*kisses*......and liam.. lol) umm yea well we went out quite a bit and we saw fireworks.. as in our own fireworks dat we set off..
*sticks tongue out at sp ppl*
yea we had like 400 shots on roman candles and we went mad well da guys did and i joined in while tiara sat screamin on da sidelines. we started firin dem at each other and den liam got real smart and lit two one n each hand and aimed all at me.. but den jake came and saved me..

dat was hilarious. bin goin up to da domain recently quite alot at night.. well da weather is gettin nicer so its pretty sweet in da domain and its nice to sit and tok and all.

umm yea nuthin much part from here and dere.. bin studyin da past few days.. ad i feel like a fuckin mom with ppl walkin in and out of da house.

"do u want breakfast?"
"need these clthes washed?"
"wait ill jus take out da rubbish.."
"for fuck's sake can u fuckin not leave ur shit all over my table?!"
"so wat do u want for dinner?"

i
am
goin
crazy

esp with certain ppl.. i was seriously this close *presses thumb and index finger together* to fuckin blowin up and ranting and ravin and bitch-slappin da shit out of certain ppl.. and i cant believe weve all managed to take it for so long... i thinki spoke to damn soon.. wen i was tellin everyone da good news and feelin at peace at last. den...

i knew it was too fuckin good to be true.

*screams and pulls hair*
if only dat horrible feelin wud LEAVE AND NEVER COME BAQ..

hah.
and again.
hah!

i would be so lucky..

well had a gret nice yesterday.. stayed at jake's place and watched lost in translation.. damn cute movie.. and den jake played ps2 -grand theft auto;san andreas- till like god noes wat time in da mornin but i stayed up and watched and it was alright cos he let me take him out on a shoppin spree and we got him a new hair cut and some bling and yea den he bought dis house in a nice area. but i was completely wasted by da end of it.. think i fell asleep straight after he turned it off.. but it was nice cos he has a big bed and thou i am used to his sleepin patterns and we sleep fine on my bed.. its jus so much nicer on his..

yea umm got up.. messed round jake got on da p2 again. cycled/walked dow to mission bay, met tiara and sat on da beach for a while crapped round.. i made a lovely sandcastle.. took a few pics.. got our feel wet. had some reali drunk thai guys come up to us.. got da best ice cream in auckland went to get food at da supermarket and yea..
dats bout it covered i think.

crazy.

so much to do.

oh yea good news.. im in!!! in AUT dat is.. i got da acceptance letter on da last day of skool. da same day i got a fuckin certificate for excellence in effort in maths and get stoned..so i was feelin pretty cool.
i was so fuckin scared wen i saw it first thou cos i wasnt prepared for da interview at all and i woke up dat day with like jus a few hrs sleep on my baq and da lady frm AUT gives me a call to da message i left her and said she sent me an email sayin to be dere at 9:20 am... which was passed.. but i got an interview at 11:20 am and i was real tired ad not prepared at all but i got in.
i was fuckin hittin da roof wen jake read it out to me cos he read it before i did and i actualli didnt wanna hear it cos i was so fuckin scared..

so relieved.
wont hafta go baq to selwyn.
yay!

as well as dat hopefully mom will get us a house here . pref one in mission bay cos its jus such a nice area. and den we can be da bitchy landladies.. and my honey can come flat with us..
please let it have a pool!!!
and den ill hafta get a car and itll all be sweet.
jake wants to get a motorcycle.
Pffft.
i swear hell end up gettin into an accident.
not dat i have any qualms about his drivin skills i jus normally freak out dat ppl drivin motors are gonna get demselves killed.. esp on da big freaky motors dey like to drive.

"u get into a car crash and dis is how i treat u..."

lol
well alls well dat ends well.
good luck all for da respective exams.