star light
star bright
first star i see tonight
wish i may
wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight
i love him.
i miss him.
maybe its not the smartest thing at this point but i cant help it.
just talking to him makes me feel like i wanna laugh and cry and smile all at the same time
i just wanna feel safe.
its so complicated.
or maybe its not maybe im just complicated.
i know everyone is tellin me to leave it be now where no can get hurt
but i cant i just cant leave it at that.
aside from the fact that i was never the sort to just cast off like that without anything in my head. even if that wasnt the case i still cant.
but it will mess with the plan i cant let anything mess with the plan this year. and maybe it wont. okay i know it will even if it doesnt it still will.
and its my fault. im so selfish.
i miss him.
i love him.
stupid stupid del. how the fuck do u get yorself into all these puddles? huh? dumb arent u?
im such a hopeless romantic its sickening.
i wish that it was just that easy for me that everything came just like that. its been tough and all ive been doin is tryin to do the right thing. keyword: try.
i should just stop thinking about it. just keep staring at the ground and let my feet take me where i wanna go. what happens happens.
gah. but its jus not that simple. everyone has choices to make. and then what happens depends on your choice. but its all grey area no black no white.
so here i stand with my head in a right muddle.
the problem is i know what everyone else is thinking i dunt wanna have to prove them right. but im afraid i will and that will jus hurt everyone more. i dunt wanna hurt anyone. thats why im better off alone.
but its so lonely being alone.
i dunt care.
besides whatever happens..
i love him
i miss him.
im helpless..
star bright
first star i see tonight
wish i may
wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight
i love him.
i miss him.
maybe its not the smartest thing at this point but i cant help it.
just talking to him makes me feel like i wanna laugh and cry and smile all at the same time
i just wanna feel safe.
its so complicated.
or maybe its not maybe im just complicated.
i know everyone is tellin me to leave it be now where no can get hurt
but i cant i just cant leave it at that.
aside from the fact that i was never the sort to just cast off like that without anything in my head. even if that wasnt the case i still cant.
but it will mess with the plan i cant let anything mess with the plan this year. and maybe it wont. okay i know it will even if it doesnt it still will.
and its my fault. im so selfish.
i miss him.
i love him.
stupid stupid del. how the fuck do u get yorself into all these puddles? huh? dumb arent u?
im such a hopeless romantic its sickening.
i wish that it was just that easy for me that everything came just like that. its been tough and all ive been doin is tryin to do the right thing. keyword: try.
i should just stop thinking about it. just keep staring at the ground and let my feet take me where i wanna go. what happens happens.
gah. but its jus not that simple. everyone has choices to make. and then what happens depends on your choice. but its all grey area no black no white.
so here i stand with my head in a right muddle.
the problem is i know what everyone else is thinking i dunt wanna have to prove them right. but im afraid i will and that will jus hurt everyone more. i dunt wanna hurt anyone. thats why im better off alone.
but its so lonely being alone.
i dunt care.
besides whatever happens..
i love him
i miss him.
im helpless..
1 Comments:
yes you are stupid. you can do much better than him, and you are not that much of a hopeless romantic. (shall i mention all the presents that you accept from "we're not going out what" people). so anyway just wanted to say that... when you meet the right guy, you'll know and it'll be all worth it. so until then... don't be lonely, just fuck around. and never never never drag ex boyfriends out of your deep dark closet, okay? maybe you'll get a perfect boyfriend for your birthday... or who knows, maybe i'll send you one from sydney. speaking of which, i had a strange fuckin dream last night.
love tiara
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