so here i am gazing into the nothingness, the blank screen in front of me that waits for me to pour my heart out... and i can come up with?
Nothing
numbness. so what's new? i've been thinking of doing some video blogging sorta like lonelygirl15 (hehe)just for added flavour. and it's easier...
So what's going on in my life? Nothing. Nothing i care about anyway.
It's like my life is dedicated to everything else.
Work at LBC is busy and getting better i supposed, i am getting used to the role and developing a script that i use when talking to people. i would like to be able to do more though but i guess it has to come slowly, there's just no way with all the stuff i am dealing with at this point.
Going out to meet a whole load of clients this week and next - i think it will be good. i tend to put myself down in my head when talking to other people esp professionals older than me and it is just something i have to get over by getting used to dealing with them, so i suppose it's good practise. i mean people are just people really.
i am so good at saying stupid things though but if it were just a random i wouldn't have a problem, so i'm not sure why i do... But it is time to face the music i guess.
Work at Woosh is barely bearable... Sick of taking and making calls and i'm so knackered by the time i get here that i do absolutely nothing. i just jump onto the net and stare at at it for 4 - 8 hours depending on when i get here.
not unlike now really...
Ryan's back, i think he's staying with EJ. he wants to get a place here and then stay for three months and go back and a whole lot of other shit. it's all a little over my head and i have no idea what is going on. it's almost like i am in my own little bubble. I think he's doing good though but it must suck staying so far away. He asked if i could lend him like $400 for him bond and shit but i am broke as a joke, which is depressing given that i am working two jobs.
EJ just a lip piercing, it looks hot! Haven't seen him in a while either but he seems to be doing ok at work and is having the usual guy trouble. lol. Hopefully should get a chance to meet up with him on Friday evening after work and we can have some good quality time together.
Tiara - well i haven't heard from her. She promised to email but haven't received nothing. Fair enough though i guess. She must be pretty busy with work and all.
Yea... Shit.
Parents decided that they want to organise a whole lot of stuff. They need to sell the house, and get mover and get everything into storage and sell all their shit online (washing machine dryer bookcases etc.)And mummy can't come back because she has to give her passport to the Citizenship Bereau whilst she is in Australia(not like she was going to be coming back anytime soon because as i expected Esquires have pushed the dates forward)
So because i am the only one here that is stable and pretty much everyone's connection to Auckland, i have to sort out all the shit. along with all my own shit.
I constantly have a list of things to do running through my head.
Nothing
numbness. so what's new? i've been thinking of doing some video blogging sorta like lonelygirl15 (hehe)just for added flavour. and it's easier...
So what's going on in my life? Nothing. Nothing i care about anyway.
It's like my life is dedicated to everything else.
Work at LBC is busy and getting better i supposed, i am getting used to the role and developing a script that i use when talking to people. i would like to be able to do more though but i guess it has to come slowly, there's just no way with all the stuff i am dealing with at this point.
Going out to meet a whole load of clients this week and next - i think it will be good. i tend to put myself down in my head when talking to other people esp professionals older than me and it is just something i have to get over by getting used to dealing with them, so i suppose it's good practise. i mean people are just people really.
i am so good at saying stupid things though but if it were just a random i wouldn't have a problem, so i'm not sure why i do... But it is time to face the music i guess.
Work at Woosh is barely bearable... Sick of taking and making calls and i'm so knackered by the time i get here that i do absolutely nothing. i just jump onto the net and stare at at it for 4 - 8 hours depending on when i get here.
not unlike now really...
Ryan's back, i think he's staying with EJ. he wants to get a place here and then stay for three months and go back and a whole lot of other shit. it's all a little over my head and i have no idea what is going on. it's almost like i am in my own little bubble. I think he's doing good though but it must suck staying so far away. He asked if i could lend him like $400 for him bond and shit but i am broke as a joke, which is depressing given that i am working two jobs.
EJ just a lip piercing, it looks hot! Haven't seen him in a while either but he seems to be doing ok at work and is having the usual guy trouble. lol. Hopefully should get a chance to meet up with him on Friday evening after work and we can have some good quality time together.
Tiara - well i haven't heard from her. She promised to email but haven't received nothing. Fair enough though i guess. She must be pretty busy with work and all.
Yea... Shit.
Parents decided that they want to organise a whole lot of stuff. They need to sell the house, and get mover and get everything into storage and sell all their shit online (washing machine dryer bookcases etc.)And mummy can't come back because she has to give her passport to the Citizenship Bereau whilst she is in Australia(not like she was going to be coming back anytime soon because as i expected Esquires have pushed the dates forward)
So because i am the only one here that is stable and pretty much everyone's connection to Auckland, i have to sort out all the shit. along with all my own shit.
I constantly have a list of things to do running through my head.
3 Comments:
din know u had a blog.just added u to my link.
Hey! I am the Malaysian stranger you met on the train from Wellington to Auckland sometime in 2004, remember? I was with my friend Steph the Bolivian girl who doesn't know much English and the other guy from Findland I can't even remember his name haha.
it's fascinating that despite your mind being blank you can still manage to spill a good few paragraphs onto the screen.
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